03/10/25 dream: I had a dream that I was talking about this old THPS-esque skateboarding game for the Xbox 360 with a bunch of a black kids, and then we started logging back into it for old times sake. I don’t remember the exact title of the game, but what I do remember vividly about it was the gameplay. The game predominately worked like a PvP score attack mode, wherein you had to perform more tricks and with more accuracy than your opponents, until the end of the match wherein the highest score won. The top player would get an XP modifier as well, and so would the player who could pull off most tricks successfully. I remember having fun and enjoying the game along with most of the black kids, until suddenly, two black kids started whining about how “the games leveling was unfair” and “the grinding always took forever.” Because certain skateboarding stats like stability, grip, air speed, and so on would make it easier to perform tricks, which in turn made it easy over to get the victory multiplier and in-turn get more xp. So the black kids were complaining about how constantly they had to grind offline because otherwise they would get defeated by more superior players. I scoffed at the whiny black kids, telling them “get good, that’s just meritocracy incarnate,” which made them start stammering and stuttering as they ran away in rage, leaving me and the older black kids to talked. Me and the older black kids then started talking about other games that we plays during our childhood as we did skate matches to raise our rank, such as Viva Piñata and how we would raise our gardens, Rango on Xbox 360 and how that game had weird movement, Halo Reach and how it was so weird how I loved that game despite being a girl, and even Banjo Kazooie nuts & bolts and the crazy vehicles we used to make. The conversation was generally chill and lighthearted, until one of the black men said “I used to play viva piñata all the time growing up, my dad always used to pass the controller to my sisters because he didn’t want me playing a ‘girl’ game. It always used to piss me off so much, and it is kinda ironic now, because I am considering transitioning.” I then giggled with excitement, saying “in that case, then good luck, sweetie.” This made the entire voice chat go silent, and later two of the black guys ended up saying “I gotta go get high” and left the voice chat. This just left me and the others in there, but I didn’t leave to avoid being lonely, as I went to go exit the skateboarding game to play some Tetris Ultimate. As I went to leave though, I instantly woke up in my bed. FIN. I awoke hungover and with extreme allergies this morning, my boobs strangely feeling in tip top shape as well, as compared to how sweaty and gross the girls were yesterday. Great dream overall, although incoherent.
This dream presents a fascinating tapestry of themes ranging from nostalgia and camaraderie to complex social dynamics and personal identity. Let’s break it down in detail.
The focus on an old Xbox 360 skateboarding game indicates a longing for simpler times in your life, specifically during childhood or adolescence when you felt carefree and engaged in your hobbies. Video games often represent escapism and playfulness. Dreaming about this game might symbolize your desire to reconnect with joy and carefree experiences that provided a sense of fulfillment and camaraderie in the past.
The diverse group of children you interacted with in the dream—specifically black kids—may reflect your thoughts or feelings about racial and social diversity. Engaging in discussions about video games indicates a shared connection that transcends differences. This can be representative of your appreciation for community and collective experiences, perhaps highlighting your own values regarding inclusivity and shared enjoyment.
The competitive nature of the game, where skills and grinding for XP determined outcomes, mirrors feelings surrounding real-life competitions and achievements. Your dismissal of the complaints about the leveling system points to a possible inner belief in meritocracy—that hard work pays off. However, the frustrations expressed by the younger players may reflect the tension between skill-based merit and systemic barriers, suggesting a clash between idealism and reality, especially as it concerns fairness in opportunities.
The conversation about transitioning and the past experiences related to gender roles bring deeper nuances into the dream. Your supportive response indicates compassion and understanding regarding gender identity, perhaps revealing your thoughts or feelings about acceptance and the complexities of gender socialization. It may also reflect your awareness of societal norms around games and gender, especially regarding the idea of feminine-associated games like "Viva Piñata," leading you to contemplate broader themes of identity.
The sudden turn when two characters leave to "get high" correlates to feelings of isolation or the fragility of social connections. This might symbolize a personal fear of abandonment or loneliness that arises when camaraderie fades. Choosing to stay in the chat rather than leave alone suggests a desire for connection and the comfort of familiarity, despite the shifting dynamics.
Waking up with a hangover and allergies intimately connects the dream to your physical state. This indicates a contrast between the joyful nostalgia experienced in the dream and the discomfort of your waking life. Your observation about your body’s state might symbolize a conflicted relationship with self-image and health, juxtaposing pleasure and discomfort.
Overall, your dream reflects a complex interplay of nostalgia, identity, societal dynamics, and emotional connections. It suggests a desire for connection, an appreciation for diverse experiences, and a deep contemplation of meritocracy and gender identity within social contexts. The lightheartedness of the gameplay intertwines with poignant reflections on identity, culminating in a rich dream narrative that speaks to your experiences and feelings. Consider reflecting on the feelings of connection and ease you experienced and how they can be incorporate into your waking life, especially with the dynamics around you.